This is going to be a long one... so if you do not have time to read through it, please do not start...
If you do have time, I suggest you relax yourself, have a cup or tea or something, before reading...
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Ok..
Some time ago, I decided to live in abundance, and put a note for my self for the purpose... And realized a few mornings after that decision that I was there, I was living in abundance...
You see, my finances are bad... really really bad... As I've let them be... And I should rationnally be worrying about "Ho, how am I going to solve this...", "Ho, what's going to happen to me...", "Ho..."
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...But I just don't... it just doesn't matter... I just let that reality play itself out, I have infused all the energy needed to take care of it, and continue to, punctually...
I follow my Path... I trust my Path... fully, completely... I see the destination and I see a few stations, but I don't know how I will get there... I commit my self to my Self, and just... let go...
I live in abundance, I have no needs, and for whatever need I eventually happen to punctually have, I know the whole of Creation will provide...
Two days ago, I wrote this:
http://molhokwai-spiritualwork.blogspot.com/2009/11/hello-first-my-knowledge-is-limited-so.html... I also thought about speaking my mind to a couple of, a few beloved friends who need to hear certain truths to really start thinking about
letting go...
I also talked to the person I can only refer to as my Divine One, my Goddess, about Chakras, and how I was starting to feel each one of my (main)Chakras (except maybe one), and how the feeling was so subtle (for some?) that it could simply just be something else...
And I happened to have reached the part of Mr Huston Smith's book
Cleansing the Doors or Perception where he gives an exhaustive description of what a Jivamukti is... and I watched two movies I was recommended to:
Conversations with God, and
Peaceful Warrior...
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And this night, approximatively an hour ago (it's 6:36CET now), it all came together... Everything... All of it...
I was in one of those dreams taking me to all kinds of states, in a place that was a lot about garbage, until I started rising, flying, dropped sort of a loaf of bread on one of the piles, got hailed by a familiar figure I did not recognize for doing that, and shouted back at him that he knew I would come back, so that he could let me go... And I drifted... And I fell from my dream state to another one, maybe what is referred to in Indian philosophy as the 4th state of consciousness...
It was a state of Bliss... And I felt my whole being
falling... free falling... I was like a... actually, I am not going to try describing the undescribable... maybe I'll sing or dance it, but I will not word it... unless it clearly comes to surface through that medium...
But I can describe what I was**, and how I felt... I saw patterns, they were not clear yet (I feel they will be, somewhen...), but there were a thousand eyes (bindus?) in a thousand feathers...
In words that a lot of us will understand: I felt my root Chakra fully opened and alive...
In plain English: I felt the roots of my being merged... One with all that is under... connected to the Earth...
Until the sensation slowly faded away... And I slowly came back to wake state consciousness...
I can expand on any of the topics above: abundance, commitment, my Divine One (
applied Oneness)...
If you know exactly what happened, I will be more than happy to hear you...
If you think you know, or anything less, please hold your Silence...
I truly Love you all more than I can express it with any words, and if I could... Swoooshhh... appear in front of you right now to take you in my arms and make you feel it, I would be complete...
*also searched for a dance school, first one I found happened to be named Yantra and went on to discover/explore the Sri Yantra...**interesting lapsus, here... I meant writing saw...
