Being Alive

VERSION FRANCAISE

(src: grand universe, by antifan-real)

What does "To Be Alive" mean for you? Does it mean cycling between happiness, sorrow, hurt, pleasure, fear, anguish, love, pain, uncertainty, doubt, confidence... and then ultimately oh so dreaded and conditioning death?

Or does it mean being here and now, whatever your here and now is, however low or high it is, being here and now, amazingly conscious, in the middle of awesome Existence...?

Your social, cultural, psychological-parental-familial, genetic programming... tells you that...

• If you don't have money you should worry and feel bad
• If you don't have a lover, a spouse you should feel frustrated and alone
• If you don't have the ideal body, you should feel fat or skinny and ugly
• If you don't have friends, you should feel alone
• If you're or getting old, your body should start decaying
• If you're not nice, if you don't submit and obey, they and more will not love you, you will not be loved
• If you don't follow the rules, they and society and more will not reward you, you will be punished
• ...

(src: pinterest.com/silvab3/conscious-quotes)

Now, how does those programming commands serve you? Do they elevate you, or keep you down? If the latter, do you want to keep cycling through happiness, sorrow, hurt, pleasure, fear, anguish, love, pain, uncertainty, doubt, confidence... and then ...?

Getting out of it requires work, real work, and I would love seeing you fully, purposefully, willingfully ready for it, at all times...

Getting out of it requires understanding that you decide how you feel. You, not your programming. That if you want to feel alone, you decide that you feel alone, not your programming. If you want to feel sad, you decide that you feel sad, not your programming. That if for any (not so) strange reason, you want to feel bad or ill or weak, you decide to feel bad, ill, weak, not your programming.

It requires finding your good feeling and upgrading your system to it, making it the base that you come back to instantaneously, whenever your programming tries to pull you elsewhere.

It requires always reminding yourself to breathe, deeply, fully... inhaling, exhaling, feeling your body, your mind, your heart...

Feeling yourself Alive...

It requires being and staying Conscious, at all times...

So... it's up to you.

(src: quotefancy.com/carl-sagan)

And so... I'll be watching you.

Either elevating yourself and fully embracing Existence... or cycling through the highs and lows and the ups and downs and rounds and rounds... of your conditional programming.


Whatever your choice is, it is your choice, so it is all right.

beautiful young lady...

Hello beautiful young lady...

You offered your self to me, and I... turned away...

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I've tried identifiying what that was about: fear? of being hurt? of 'falling'? anxiety? love pain?

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...until I just realized that I simply was not ready yet...

I realized that my extremely deeply rooted issues with love relationships are stil there, that I still have to bury myself into that shadowy zone of my consciousness, to bring it to Light... and crystallize the true picture of what my relationship with you beautiful, sensual, sweet ladies is, so as to be able to tell you:

"I feel an irresistible attraction towards you. As you do towards me. I feel like kissing you, right here and right now..."

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"I desire making Love to you, cherishing you, being there for you completely, entirely... I desire for us to share more pleasure than we could ever imagine experiencing... While remaining free... You and I... remaining free..."

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So am I ready now? We'll see...

chains...

Expectation is the chain with which we enslave ourselves to each other...